Sorry, but I can't stop bitchin. Just the thought of yesterday annoy's me. My ex Austin laughed at me when he made fun of me. He acted like he didnt care what I had to say. All the fucking sign's are there. I dont even think I have the need to point it out. But I will. He is embaressed of me. Either that or, all his friends hate me (which most of them do) and if he shows any interest in me theyll make fun of him. Why do I have to be so hated LMAO. I didn't do shit! I used to be a nice girl but when people take advantage of that and treat you like they can just do or say whatever they want to you, yeah, your gonna be a fucking bitch to everyone who either does that to you or think they're just gonna do that to you. School fucking messes people up. Not necessarily school, but the fucking douchebag's who go there. I never really had as much problem's with girl's as I did boy's. I got picked on in elementary school until 2nd grade because I liked pokemon. I got made an ass of and used in 3rd grade by this girl I thought was so cool and was my friend. In fourth grade, a nasty rumor went around about me that was so untrue that I wish I couldve laughed at it but I was too busy getting spit on and hated, and made fun of, and called disgusting. This shit these stupid asses make up about people will ruin there lives. And it fuckin sucks. That rumor trashed my name. And not to mention this girl that got fuckin held back cause shes so stupid hated me because she thought I was a poser. I think she was just a bitch. In fifth grade I hardly had any friend's, just a few. In sixth grade I made a little more friends, but I had glasses and  I got teased a little cause I wore baggy clothes to hide my non existant fat. They thought I wore the same shirt everyday. Haha. Blahh. I was 11 and retarded. When I was 12, I got prettier, I dressed like an actual girl, I wore makeup, got contacts, got a boyfriend (Austin, the asshole who is embaressed of me, who wasnt back then, he actually really liked me) and had a couple best friend. My old best friend and I were enemies the majority of 7th grade but made up after awhile. In 8th grade is when I made alot of friends because I was 'hot' I guess and thats what everyone told me. But it still went all downhill. Everyone thought I was a whore. Me and austin had unprotected sex and I missed a period. I told austin and he was pissed. The girl who hated me in 4th grade all of the sudden became my best friend for a few seconds. She was like, whats wrong with austin? She refused to let me not tell her. I told not to tell anyone, and she said okay. So I told her, I think Im pregnant I missed a period. that was a lie when she said okay. Cause next thing I knew by the time second hour came, EVERYONE knew.EVERYONE, even seniors. OMG. Thats how this whole 'whore' thing came to beee. Not to mentio the fact that I thought I loved this other guy named mike, he was in 12th grade and was 17 and I was just 13, so I thought I hit the jackpot. Haha, so he got me to give him head. I totally wish I could take that back. FUCK. I told him not to tell anybody but he told a few people and I denied it. I was dating austin at the time and cheated on him with mike. But its not my fault I went into this whole sex thing. Austin pushed me into having sex with him, I would constantly say no im not ready but he didnt care. Then in 9th grade I turned emo... big mistake. But I dont regret it though,. Because I made sooooooo much friends. Alot of new friends. I had plans like every single day.
I made lots of new boyfriends. I went to this alternative high school that you go to after half of the day being at the high school then you got a bus that takes 45 minutes to get to the other school which is nice because less time at school. I met lots of cute guys. I had so many friends there and nobody hated me. It was like a fresh start. This guy named Jeremy moved to the original high school, not the alternative one. I met Jeremy and he really liked me. Our first kiss was romantic. I met nick in ninth grade because I went to a different alternative school full time, I think I went there in February, and everyone at the other alternative school messaged me on MySpace and thought I moved haha.
It was fun at the other aternative school, it was called crossroads. At crossroads I went there because my boyfriend at the time, Jeremy went there and so did my best friend since 4th grade. It was pretty fun though.
Then in 10th grade alot of my friends at Crossroads moved and alot of people hated me and my best friend Erin because we would get so bored staring at a dumb computer screen all day and would just talk and laugh about stupid shit. Then everybody knew a secret about something I did with Nick so everyone would make fun of me about it and make me feel like shit. Then my friend Bree moved. Erin dropped out because she got pregnant. Angie and Lizzy graduated. And I was stuck there alone to fend for myself so I dropped out.
I never made it to 11th grade because school fuckin sucks for me. I would be at the end of 11th right now, and I wouldve been a senior this year. Time flies. People fucking suck. They ruined my high school year,. Actually basically all of my school years. Fuck em though. Ima get a GED , Get a car, and get the fuck out of this lame ass town.