I feel a little better. I'm outside drinkin coffeee. I'm starting a fast today. I want supermodel legs (: Over the winter I fuckin hibernated and now I'm 10380193091309 pounds more than I was last summer. It blow's but who give's a fuck. Atleast I'm starting a diet, show's I'm trying.

So yesterday I really didn't get to talk about it because I was too busy stressing over a pointless subject. Ugh. But yeah I'll tell youu.

Yesterday my ex texted me, Nick. He was like 'What up' and I was like 'Whos this' [I deleted him from my contact's because he was getting on my nerves  haha] And he wrote 'Hey what's up' I was thinkin, is this fuck fucking stupid? I asked who he was and replied like that? Dumbbb. I really didn't know who it was. And I really hope it wasnt someone tryin to fuck with me. In the back of my mind I had a feeling it was him but wasnt sure. So I replied 'Who is thiss' and he wrote 'Nick' so I was like 'Oh okay.' then he said "what up' again. As if it was the only thing he knew how to say' so I said 'takin a walk u?' And he said 'At home bored chillin' so I didnt know how to reply, you gotta know that this guy fuckin is hard to text, he is so stupid, awkwarddd. So I wrote 'Ah that sucks' I kinda knew I wouldnt get a text back. When he texted me I just figured he wanted a piece, he probably only texted me because his girlfriend dumped him. I don't know . I kinda feel stupid though because he texted me at 1, and I texted back at 4, and asked him who it was. He is such a fuckin high on he probably forgot he texted me first. So, he probably thinks I'm still
the crazy attention whore I was 2 years ago when we dated.

Wow though, he was fucking sexy as fucking fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! He's 6'3 ( I LOVE tall guys) He had dark hair (My fav hair for a guyy) A lip ring (hotttt) Hes emo ish but thinks hes a gangster ha. Its kinda cute. He dont have emo hair or nothin, nothin short of opposite of that. He had a six pack, muscle arms. OMG I remember when me and my friend were on a four wheeler with him and he told me to hold on to him so I did I could feel his six packkkk. MMMMMMMMMMMm lmao! Although his dick is thin, I could look past that LMAO. He did have a hairy ass though, turn offff. He has jealousy issues to... And he probably 99% chance cheated on me. But who knows. Who gives a shit I dont love him anymore. Actually I dont think I ever loved him, I think it was just lust. I was in his car with him and dont get me wrong I was happy to be around him, I mean look at this fuckkk. But I was thinkin 'Why am I with this guy? Hes so stupid and a loser' I think it was the big L, ha Lust. Fuck it he went to prison got out and saw pics of him and hes ugly now. kinds chubby, lost his six pack and cut his hair. Yuckyyy. He texted me though and when he did I felt like, good. Idk. Who cares though. He never texted me back. And im not goin out of my way to text him. K